Just some random thoughts going through my mind

 

 

Lately, I have been having a series of random thoughts concerning the former lover/current love of my life…I have been questioning my faith in our redemption…will we come back together as my dreams illustrate or is this illusion in fact a DElusion?

One thing I am happy to point out is the fact that all memories of past wrongs and hurts have been completely erased from my mind. It requires work; it’s a bit of a struggle; I have to strain, in fact, to remember the things that once made me cry, and sigh, and ask why why why?

Now when I think of him, I only think of things that make me smile…

And this silent treatment we have been giving each other is so beautiful to me because when we ARE near each other, there is so much unspoken communication between us. Little small movements and actions that only we can understand. His heart speaks to me…tells me all the things that his ego and manly pride will not bring him to confess just yet…

Maybe this is presumptuous of me…maybe I am only coming up with these feelings to make myself feel better…and if this is the case…so what?? I can feel good if I want, dammit!

But the last two encounters with him have been the sweetest in a while…although we barely said five words to one another our hearts were screaming!

“I hear you, loud and clear, baby…and I miss you, too…”