…God better yet…I want to make sure of how to keep other’s painbodies, or “DEMONS” from latching on to me! Lord, I need to be able to feel at peace no matter where I am…but at the same time I still want my own peaceful sanctuary outside of my home. I realize that there are some places I may have to stop visiting…too dark…I need to be surrounded by light at all times!
Lord, just help me to break free from ALL of my attachments. You know what they are. I’m very thankful for the transformation I’m going through right now. But I still need strength and guidance in dealing with painbodies, particularly others.
Note: if you don’t know what painbodies are, pick up Eckhart Tolle’s “A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose”…he breaks it down very well! 
I am in a room with a person performing a very animated demonstration and spirited lecture on how cool it would be to bring “four ruthless crackheads” over to Doha to “wipe it out”…his excitement about the fact that there are no security cameras in some banks here disturbs me…he made me think of Nafiza Ziyad…he exhibited many of the same characteristics displayed by Nafiza in her rant on the Marta train: showing signs of ignorance, misguided upbringing, belligerence, deeply deeply unconscious…
And ironically, (in keeping with the teachings of Eckhart) earlier he (the performer) gave a small speech on how “time is of the essence”…”time, time, time, time, time,” he said…”time”…the ego’s best friend.
How badly I wanted to tell him that TIME is a GHOST…an illusion…a haunting presence sent to steal, kill and destroy all opportunities for peace in the NOW (Aaah, Kristen is moving into the Now…adios, earthlings!) …but I am not yet conscious enough, not yet fully present to deal with such a deeply unconscious person.
I know, I know…”not yet” implies time..and right now I am very present…and that’s all that matters. I guess these moments in the darkness are necessary for me to be able to feel the difference between a soothing stillness and an atmosphere contaminated by noise.
And I don’t mean background noise, such as music, television or talking…but the noise of the clash of incompatible life energy frequencies…you hear it and feel it from the inside…and there is no remote to lower the volume…and if there is one (which I know it is), I know not now how to access it.
But still, I thank you, Lord, for completing me…more and more although I can be no more…moment by moment…Amen!! 
(This post was copied from a journal entry written on August 14, 2008 )
